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Failing to Take My Own Advice. Again.

January 3, 2006 02:31 PM

Well. It’s a New Year. After much lounging on the sofa, watching rain fall on Hollywood, napping, eating, and musing, I have emerged from my studio cocoon to face 2006.

I am, as a rule, anti-resolution. But I’ve decided to go ahead and break my own rule because, Hey, what the hell do I know?

These aren’t resolutions so much as they are things I’d like to do, you know, forever—it just happens that I’m starting now. I want to:

Be a better friend. More willingness to go out in public. Less flaking out. If I have any friends left after the shameful way I comported myself in 2005, I hope that they will give me another chance.

Figure out what I want to do. I think that it has to do with writing, teaching, or cartoons. I’ve at least got a place to start doing research. At the end of January it will be six months that I’ve been in my current position. And, as much as I love my co-workers, and my job is relatively easy—I don’t want to end up an aimless assistant for the rest of my 20s.

A side note: LADWP has the most annoying hold music I’ve ever heard. It sounds like Bobby McFerrin hyperventilating and then having a stroke.

Write every day. At least a free-write. And blog it. If I don’t exercise some discipline with this, I’m going to lose the bit of steam I’d managed to build up. The site is a good way to take inventory of the way things are going.

Those are the important points. There’s some other crap about, you know, finally going to the dentist, cooking at home more often, repairing damaged relationships and such.

For anyone who still visits, thank you for your patience.

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Comments

I have been here waiting for you - so glad that you are back.

I really hope that you are feeling better. If there is anything at all that I can ever do for you, please let me know.

Posted by: Jewels on January 4, 2006 12:22 PM

Helena, everyone needs to have those "cocoon" moments and hibernation periods. I hope yours did you some good! Welcome back. :)

Posted by: Jen Neil on January 4, 2006 02:09 PM

Gosh, I missed you! I was begining to think you were having "too much" fun doing you know what! Hope that WAS the case!
Anyway, glad you are back.
Love,
Tipsy

Posted by: tipsy on January 4, 2006 09:46 PM

Hi, long time no see! I took all of December off myself - blog free month - I needed it. Seems it was something going around - "the common blue" or something...

Anyway, your not-resolutions are brilliant! Writing btw, is definately something you can venture further on, just wanted to boost you on that issue!

xx Rarity

Posted by: Rarity on January 5, 2006 07:58 AM

We used to have a cat named Daniel. A couple times a year Daniel would just wander off for a couple of days after which he'd wander home, beat up, cut, his ear tattered. He'd just sort of come home, eat and then sleep for a while. Then he'd be completely normal for months until it was time for him to wander off again for a little while. Didn't take us long to know he'd be back when he was ready to come home.

I don't know if I'm comparing my old cat to you or me, but I figure it works one way or the other.

Here's a list of things I want to accomplish in 06:

- take a real vacation
- write 1 new song/month
- record album
- cut credit card debt in half
- finish screenplay
- read 15 books
- play out 8 times
- boxing lessons

Seems pretty tame, but I'm really lazy...and a wicked slow reader.

Posted by: bill on January 5, 2006 11:23 AM

Nice resolutions. Don't beat yourself if you falter, just try again.

Keep on writing.

Posted by: claire on January 8, 2006 12:01 PM

it sounds like you got the plan and ideas in place.

now...time for more of Helena's thoughts.

the world is watching...

Posted by: Groonk on January 25, 2006 02:14 PM

it sounds like you got the plan and ideas in place.

now...time for more of Helena's thoughts.

the world is watching...

Posted by: Groonk on January 25, 2006 02:14 PM